There is a mysterious human dimension, the recognition of which shatters all our ideas about who we are, where we come
from
and what our mission in this world is.
This is the realm of Consciousness:
the final scientific and spiritual mystery.
This blog is about the mysteries and miracles of Consciousness.
About the living spirit in
action which, dressed up in the machinery of your body, discovers itself and
the wonders of the world.
About The Author: Ervin K. Kery
What
is the nature of the human soul, the human spirit?
Why do we think the way we
actually do?
How our habits and roles evolve?
What are we, beyond our roles?
What is the mysterious Life that lives in me, and experiences the world through
me?
I have long been fascinated by the secret of human
existence, the mystery of the human soul/spirit. There has to be something that is beyond social roles and conditioning.
There has to be a ”foundation,” which lives in me as life, and to which learnt
and acquired thoughts and habits, the programmed patterns–the personality–are
attached. Psychology, still not a full-fledged science, only studies the
conditioned patterns of behaviour, that is, the Ego (it is therefore possible
to refer to it as "egology" - the science of the Ego), but it does not address the issues
that precede the emergence of the Ego, not does it deal with whatever is beyond
the Ego. What is the eternal factor that follows us from our birth to our
death, no matter what a mature and powerful personality we believe we have?
I have been enthusiastically and anxiously studying the
human consciousness for over twenty years, experimenting with various methods of meditation, hoping that in this
way I would finally understand myself and the world completely. This
understanding, however, did not come easily.
Then
something extraordinary happened. When
I
was deep in my adulthood, a critical period came in my life; everything
I had
believed in, collapsed. Mulling over the past and the dark visions of
the
future brought about a lot of suffering, and when I was no longer able
to face
the internal hell, there was nothing to be done, and I gave up the
fight. I was
not able to carry the burden of my sufferings any longer. At that time,
something mysterious took place, and it shattered all my former ideas
about
myself and the world. When I finally released all that had been
previously, I
was able to get over the heavy prison of my personality, and for hours I
felt an incredible inner peace, and a curious ”something” was
contamplating the
miracuolous external world through me. After a while, however, the
tormenting
thoughts and the suffering returned.
This experience changed me drastically. From that time on, I have focused all my
attention to learn what that exceptional experience was, and how it is possible
to make that experience constant. In the course of my research I found that the
most elementary method of all spiritual disciplines is monitoring the
Consciousness living in us. That is what meditation is for, the profound
prayer of monks, and the practice of transpersonal psychology. I therefore
began to concentrate on the Consciousness inside me.
I persisted in turning inward: I watched my bodily sensations,
my emotions and thoughts and also the witness that senses all these: the
Consciousness. As I concentrated my conscious attention on myself, I
began to not believe my own thoughts, emotions and convinctions, and started to
wake up from the dream world of dogmas. I woke up, then I woke up again,
through a series of awakenings, each time into a more spacious world and a
larger image of the world, until what had previously happened spontanously,
took place again.
After a few years of
practice, the state of observing Consciousness became permanent. In this period I have made several
astonishing discoveries about our real Self (the Consciousnes) and the nature of the world. These discoveries are reported in this homepage.
Ervin K. Kery
ervin.kery@gmail[dot]com
